Island Man

 

Stepping deep
into yet another
awkward social situation
of my own creation
I fail yet again
upon entrance
to take a moment
and gauge the temperature
of the room..

Maybe my thermometer is broken
or perhaps I lack
the aptitude to read it?

Are my small talk skills

really that deficient?

I so often lack the motivation

to even feign chatting interest..

Maybe I should just accept

the self reality fact

that by now is obvious..

I just don't give a shit..

Even the feeling to belong

which is a core human trait

has gone missing in me..

I have no use for people anymore..

Please don't take my exit quest personally..

There is no hate

in my encased heart for anyone..

Just a general sense of apathy..

I sure do miss the lockdowns of COVID

and the state sanctioned social isolation

that shielded we antisocial types

from the viral implications

of people interactions